IF YOU READ THE SUICIDAL STUFF BEFORE, THIS IS ACTUALLY GOOD NEWS
I found it guys!
When I woke up, I was as happy as fuck.
I REALIZED WHY WHEN I REMEMBERED MY DREAM
WHAT MY DREAM WAS ABOUT :



So my parents let me visit a friend, who's brother was actually my BOYFRIEND! (romantic shit coming up soon.)
Basically, he hides til my parents gtfo, then when they leave he comes out
and then he invited me for a little game of CoD (I FAILED, EPICALLY.)
So then in the middle of the game, I was chilling near his bed while he was playing.
THEN HE BENDS DOWN AND
-romantic now.-
KISSES ME ON THE CHEEK.
so then I woke up.




THAT'S THE DREAM
THAT'S IT
THERE'S REALLY JUST ONE WAY
TO GET ME OUT OF MY STATE



LE LOVE


Meh, if I was actually looking, I'd have a loveypoonugget by now.
Too bad there's only one person I like.
;;
SO NO SUICIDE UNTIL SOMEONE I LIKE (that exact person) ASKS ME/ACCEPTS ME.
til then, le goodbye.

GAIS GAIS I JUST GOT BACK FROM LE COLLOOJ AND I FORGOT TO SAY THAT MY DREAM "CONTINUED"

So then I just look up at him and smile :HE'S SO FUCKING CUTE IT HURTS:
then I yawn
while he's playing I get very tired and lean on his arm
and fall asleep ;;
Then he just gets me up on his bed and eats. When he gets back he wakes me up and gives me a doughnut.
HELL YES DOUGHNUT

so yes.

-ZEEHBRAISSOHAPPYSQUEEE